The Truth

We seldom hear what's the truth. In every story has two sides of truthfulness yet we are so afraid of listening and finding out the truth because it really hurts. Other times we tried to avoid it and cause the misunderstanding of every relationships.

I, on the other hand had been a victim of a false judgment because only heard the other side of the story. Explaining and defending myself over and over again is somewhat like it will never ends and it's very tiring actually and not to forget that it is just a waste of time. So whenever i heard some issues that brought up from few connected friends or group of friends that happens to be ME as the subject, which somehow very degrading and humiliating is unforgivable. Passing through stories after stories and led to add -on or taking away some part of the story is not my type. One that i hated is gossiping. Telling tales about one's life. If that positive i can accept that, but if negatives and lies, i dunno what will be the intention is, is unacceptable in my account.

I've heard lies, negatives about me. And i have so much to consider why i can't confront the person involved, i have my own reasons. I know it's too much but things will get better then in due time.

I have been fooled by group of people and yet i just stayed humble because i had enough in dealing this kind of crowd. I guess it is really hard to be good even you tried to yet there are people taking an effort to pull you down, seemingly. But i am thankful it happened. At least i have been true to them. I treated them nicely and welcomed into my own world. But i am not that idiot or stupid what's behind all of this. So, i would say, what comes around goes around. Who cares? I don't need you, i don't need a group of people that doesn't like you to be around. I mean it is just so frustrating. Who cares who has none and have? I guess i am just mistakenly judged with people that has a lot envy in their heart. I cried a lot. I cry when i heard lies and negatives about me that i can't tell even explain my side. I cry because of the true stories of other people of how they fought their lives; i cry because of the story i watched in the television and in the big screen; i cry because of the living testimonies of a braved heart; i cry because of the happiness i felt with my family and friend even to my own; i cry because of how God touches my life, of how He spank me of being stubborn; i cry because i grief; i cry because of just simply the joy that brought to my son and so on and so forth.

As for now, it is better this way. Better than yesterday, previous days so everybody will have peace. Whatever perceptions towards me, it is not my problem anymore. I won't push myself to be in your circle if there's somebody that doesn't want me to belong to. That will only cause faction and trouble in the group and i won't pretend that it is ok coz it is not.

So to all of you, especially YOU or YOU and YOU who keep fooling me, thank you and you may find peace of mind whenever you go to sleep. Thanks for letting me know who you really are over and over again. I am not buying of your stories anymore and please stop showing off and try to be sensitive to your surroundings, in your own home. You might forgotten something that needs your attentions or perhaps you don't want to recognize what is missing coz i do, we do. Thank you.